Sunday, January 23, 2011
So, how come I have a perfect life?
I'm seriously not trying to brag but want to express my gratitude for what I have been blessed with.
I have been noticing my blessing a lot more recently and I want to say that I know for sure that Heavenly Father is aware of me and for some reason keeps blessing me more than I deserve.
As I was doing the bills the other day, I realized that it has been a couple years now that we have really had to worry about being able to pay a bill. We make very little money right now but some how, we have not had to stress about it, in fact we pretty much can do whatever we want and not have to think about it much. This is not to say that I don't plan things carefully because I do, but that had not been my strong suit before... why am I good at that now? Then, when we are coming to a time in our lives where the extra expense of a baby comes, a great job falls into Parker's lap that will work around his school schedule and allow us to stay living comfortably. Did I mention that I don't have to work? In my opinion the greatest blessing of all! I can stay home and prepare for our baby and be here for him when he arrives.
We also are being blessed by the generosity of both our parents who are so supportive of us and they know how much they do to help us through school and give us the best head start we can have.
All of these things so far have been material blessings, but they are a significant part of my life.
But even better than that, I have been blessed with a very easy life. I am so grateful that things that are right are obvious to me. That I don't have to go on a long, difficult quest to find what will make me happy. I know what will make me happy and I have been able to go out and just follow the plan and I can't be more content or happy with how my life has gone so far.
I am blessed with the best husband a girl could ask for. He is so attentive and sweet to me. He respects me and my ideas and includes me in all of our decisions. We are truly equal partners. At the same time he is his own confident person who goes out and pursues his dreams. He is successful in everything that he does and I never have to worry whether or not he will be able to support me and my family. I also have no doubt that he will be a great father who will be a worthy priesthood leader in our home.
I have the coolest friends out there. I never have to worry about drama or my friends being "work" ( you know the kind). We can get together as often or not and still stay the best of friends. Katie, I'm sorry but I am really glad that you aren't going to the peace corp because I am so stoked to have friends like her around to help me on this baby journey.
I am so lucky to have the opportunity to work with the youth of the church. In my patriarical blessing it says that I will influence the youth of the church and it is so clear that I am getting those chances. They are the best people in world and I fall in love with every one of them and I have such a desire to serve them and help them find who they are. What a cool age. I wouldn't go back to that age myself for the world but I love being around them now and watching them discover the gospel and learning to feel the spirit. There is no better feeling in the world.
Of all the things that seem unimportant in the whole scheme of things I am blessed with skills that are making me happier and enhancing my life. ( "I don't even have any special skills. Girls only like guys with skills.... nun chuck skills, bow staff skills, computer hacking skills".... sorry I just watched Napoleon Dynamite) In my last post I was whining because I was struggling to be a perfect homemaker. Well, I have been working hard to improve myself and I really have improved. I was able to organize myself in such a way that is making my life so much easier. I am also finding more joy in housework, which is something I have never experienced. :) But, I know that Heavenly Father has heard my sincere desire to do better and is showing me how it's done. What a silly thing for God to worry about but he is aware of me and the desires of my heart to be a good homemaker.
I also cannot start to express my gratitude for the gift of being able to have kids. I know so many people who struggle to get pregnant and I had to try for a whole two months and I was blessed with Patton. I can't understand why this blessing came to me so easily and not others but I do not take it for granted. I also can't believe how easy my pregnancy has been. I have not been gotten sick once. I have really only experience slight discomforts here and there. I thought it was supposed to be so hard. I will never forgive myself for not starting our family sooner but I am so grateful for the prompting that I had that has lead to the family we are starting now. I have also had no complications so far. I go into the doctors and he just tells me every thing is perfect and sends me on my way.
I don't know what trials are to come, and I know they will. I am sure I won't always get a " free pass" like I feel like I have gotten so far but I am thankful for the good life that I have had. Of course there are so many more blessings in my life but I just really felt the need to put it out there the things that I have been noticing lately.
Heavenly Father and the Savior live and they are so mindful of us. Look around and I am sure you'll see miracles occurring in your life that were meant just for you!
p.s. maybe this was way more info than you cared to know but maybe someone needs to be reminded of the blessings right in front of your eyes :)
p.p.s. For anyone who hasn't seen the pictures done by Mark Mabry called Reflections of Christ and Another Testament.... you need to see the book or better the DVD. It is such an amazing experience to think of the Savior in such a personal way. I love it!